It Will Always Be A Mystery!

Superstitions & Palmistry?

2010-11-09T19:08:00.001-08:00

Superstitions and palmistry.
Truth or just made up beliefs?
My Deepavali was totally good, only to be hampered by a certain thing that is clinging onto the back of my mind.
My palm was ready by a family friend of my father's and the things he said about me, *sighs*
It was like as if my palm was a very terrible one.
Whatever he said, has been stuck onto my mind and therefore, i wanted to research if palm reading is really true or not.
What he said about me, was not helped by my sister who dreamt that i got boxed in the face till one of my eyes was gone.
My parents got so worried and now i'm stuck with a curfew, no going against dad's words!:(

From what i researched about palm reading, the answers i get are mixed.
A few sites, tell me that palm reading is just fake, and it's just a cultural tradition passed on.
However, other sites tell me that palm reading is true when palmistry is studied properly and the changing of hand lines, can be monitored by ourselves.
Very confusing results, however, personally, i do not believe palm reading.
I always believe that it is our determination which shows us the way.

Superstitions are credulous beliefs made up by people from the past and i dont belive black cats to have powers to cause bad luck, breaking of mirrors to cause seven years of bad luck and the swinging of gates at six to invite evil. I dont believe in any of these crap!

Dreams, however, seem to be a very interesting topic. Reading up on this, the study of dreams is called oneirology. People till today, are still trying to find bout further about dreams. It was a very interesting topic to read up on. Dreams arent truth, but it affects the way one thinks. Interesting.
:(

& Friendship & My Life!

2010-08-22T10:05:00.000-07:00

Been clubbing once again.
Really enjoy dancing and all.
& managed to build a better bond with my cousins!
But sometimes, i realise, it's better not to care than to care too much for someone.
I was just a little too affectionate towards this certain someone, and i ended up being mistookk for wrongly.
*Sighs*, it happens.

Holidays are here, and exams are nearing.
Havent done any revision yet, and i have to start getting down to it.
Really have to do well in these examinations, or i'm gonna end up repeating year 2.
Really worried for my studies and am trrying to improve this habit of waking up on time.
You gotta do better guru, sleep early!
Been trying to look for a job too, home situation aint good.
Gotta start earning some bread for myself.

Have started getting back to church and overslept today.
See! I cant even wake up for church.
I really gotta improve on gettng up.
& i've to start exercising too.
Have been procrastinating too much about it!
Gotta start!
:)

Pissed!

2010-07-29T07:49:00.000-07:00

Talk about people who can piss you off so bad.
A simple joke cannot be played along with and what do i get?
A super sensitive reaction followed by assumptions!
Dont test my limits cause i can be nice and if you're gonna blow your attitude off on me, i dont have the need to stand it!

And to my so-long-ago-updated-blog:
I've been having like so so so much of fun!
Didi's birthday was real fun!
I wanted to own the present i made her, but oh well!
Went to watch Thillalangadi with her and then, ended up at Mummy's with the cake and food and all.

At night, headed to Double O with Bunny, Alvin, Thani, Didi, Sashi, Nanthakka & a few others.
Was a nice place, had so much fun there.
First time clubbing with Nanthakka & Bunny, but Nanthakka was super sweet.
She got me a shot & kept buying us jugs!
Later part, shifted to dreams & saw many familiar faces!
Monica, Gaythri .....
Was happy to see Mon after a long time.

Ended up at Mummy's place and then, fell asleep and stayed there the whole day.
Eating and eating.
Which leads to my next issue!
Something is seriously wrong with me.
I've been eating and eating and eating!
I cant stop myself how much i try!
I get hungry again and again.
Sad.

Today had a splendid time with Prasanna, Nisha & Murali!
My initial plan was to pass a gift to Esther at Yishun, slack a while and leave.
But these cuties made me stay the whole day & made me have so much fun with them.
& Pras treated me to like almost everything.
Movie, food & all.
Which reminds me to give a small review!

Madharasapattinam was a one of a kind superb movie.
Easily winning over Raavanan, this movie is something different and special.
Playing with your sentiments and all.
I almost teared, the impact was of such.
Definitely watching this movie again!:)

A New Change!

2010-07-18T08:30:00.000-07:00

A New Change Is Just About The Corner For Me!

Firstly, I've Got A Job, Nothing Big, A Telemarketer.

To Help Me Meet Ends!

This Is Seriously A Blessing From Father God!

After How Much I've BackSlided & All.

I Asked And He Gave:)

Secondly, I'm Really Sure That I'll Be Moving Soon!

A New Environment, New Place & All.

I'm Not Happy, But I Dont Have A Choice.

Have To Go With The Family!

Thirdly, I'm So Certain That My First Semester Of This Year Is Super Screwed.

Therefore, I'm Just Gonna Let Go Of It.

And Cure This Sleeping Disease Of Mine, Before My Second Semester Starts!

And Then, I'll Give My Best!

My Saving Journey Has Already Started!
Gonna Work Towards That.

Its Better To Put Money Aside For God-Knows-When!

& Lastly, I Think The Best Change I've To Make, Is To Harden Myself!
Dont Let Anyone Hurt Me And Be Firm With Decisions.

A No To Someone Should Be A No!

And That Sleep's Ruining Everything!

2010-07-05T12:56:00.000-07:00

I'm really worried about my education.
I'm starting to become very lazy and it's something really bad.
I dont even understand what's going on in classes these days and that is not a good sign at all.
I badly want to get to school, but this sleep is spoiling everything for me.

I've set a few targets for myself that i plan to achieve by this week.
I have to get back in track, in school (Before i end up as a Lifeless Loser)
I need to get this Diploma done and over with.
Prove to people my worth and fulfill my parents's expectations of me.
I really should start acting responsible.

& my sister, dearest sister, showed me a really disgusting video of maggots crawling out from a guy's foot.
That was when it hit my head, that my corn hasnt been removed.
And i started feeling this tickling sensation on my foot, like something was moving about.
I dont know, if i was having illusions or what.
But i aint waiting any longer, gonna have it removed.

I've to get back in track and set my mind straight.
No More Fun For You, Guru!
Back to school, exercise and more home time.
& I've to start learning the healthy habit of saving.
I say, but it never happens.
BUCK UP GURU!

Another compulsory thing that i should start doing, is quiet time as well as ass back in Church!
I guess that i have backslided like really badly.
I dont seem to be doing anything useful.
I have to start doing something about all this.
Sad.

Anyway, Kristen's birthday was fun, caught up with friends and all.
And my bundle of joy, Adrielle, was there.
So wish i could own her, but her mom would do more than murder me.
Need more time with that cute little cuppycake!
:)

Raavanan!

2010-06-30T11:36:00.000-07:00

The Satisfaction Of Watching A Wonderful Movie.

I Truly Enjoyed This Superb Production As A Whole.

It Was Simply Wonderful & Beautiful.

The characters, every one of them, played out their roles, really well!

Aishwarya Rai looked beautiful and acted out the part of a policeman's wife, who gets kidnapped. Her emotions were well brought out and she managed to portray her role beautifully.

Vikram was spectacular. He was the kidnapper. A man who looks so angry and all, but soft in the inside.

The Story: Vikram kidnaps Aishwarya Rai to avenge for his sister's death, which was caused by a few police officers raping her. He kidnaps Aishwarya Rai as she is the wife of PrithiviRaj, a policeman, who indirectly caused Vikram's sister's death. Vikram's initial thoughts would be to kill Aishwarya Rai, but stunned by her bravery, he decides against it, and without realising, he falls in love with her. He tries to make her stay, but realises that her heart is with her husband. In the end, he sends Aishwarya back to PrithiviRaj. However, PrithiviRaj, would 'leer' Aishwarya into a trap, and he kills Vikram in the end. Aishwarya at that certain point, realises her love for Vikram. A beautiful Love story.

The landscape shots are simply wonderful. The hills, mountains, the broken statue in the middle of the river, not forgetting the steep waterfalls. Wonderful! The song scenes werent up to expectations, but overall, this movie was totally worth 12 dollars. I wouldnt mind watching it again. A wonderful movie with a heart wrenching ending!:)

I Really Hate My Family So Badly!

2010-06-20T09:36:00.000-07:00

I hate my family.
I hate every single one of them.
I hate being enclosed in this place, where i find no peace, trust, love and happiness.
Everyone is fake, nothing is true.
Why can't even one of them understand, on how i feel?
Why doesn't anyone feel my pain of this separation?

I dont know where to go, or what to do.
I just dont want to stay here any longer.
I dont even feel safe, or comfortable.

Just yesterday, i thought that things would be better.
But it had to happen all over again.
I just hate this 'drama' for a familly.
I want someone who will love me & care for me.
I want a family to sit down for dinner with me.
To go out together, laugh together, with each other.
Love each other and understand one another.

I REALLY HATE MY LIFE!

Singam!

2010-06-15T22:24:00.000-07:00

Had the satisfaction of watching a super Tamil movie like after so long.
Singam would be gladly rated 9.5/10.
There's never perfection in this world and i could give this for the closest!
It had a bit of Vijay's story flow, but the way it was presented seemed much better than Vijay's movies.
Not meaning to criticise him, but nowadays, Vijay's movies are getting from bad to worse to boredom.

Singam was like so so nicee.
Surya and Anushka and Vivek did a really good job.
Vivek's comedy was super cutee and funny with the usual 'read between the lines' meaning.
Anushka acted her part out real well.
& she took glamour to a whole new level.
Shocked (Remember Tash's shock)
Surya, simply FANTASTIC!
I enjoyed this movie like so so much.

The Back To School Blues!

2010-06-15T22:12:00.000-07:00

And i'm back in school once again!
Sad life.
Missed two days of school (Both Monday and Tuesday)
All thanks to my Lappy screwing up on me last minute.
Couldnt complete my assignment and couldnt hand it in either.
Sad.

Having so much of expenses now.
I'm like so stressed up thinking about money itself.
Went clubbing and lost my contacts, gotta get new ones.
Gotta return my cousin 30 bucks.
Gotta get some basic items.
& desiring for so many things.
Wish i was Bill Gates's son!

Had a hell of a night on a Wednesday night.
Had so much of fun with S,A & P.
Went to St. James' Power Station(The Power House)
Super crowded and a lil too Loud for me!
Moved on to the Ruppee Room and it looked nice from outside, but inside... CRAP!
Finished our drinks and tried to get into Attica.
Sad, no luck.
Ended up at Boat Quay and before i could open my eyes, was sitting down inside Dreams.
The place wasnt nice, but the songs and shots were Superb!
Hehehehe.
Had a lot of fun!

Visited the Zoo too!
After so long, was really happy to be there.
Was even more delighted that we could see every single animal.
Couldnt locate 4 of em though, so left it at that.
Enjoyed myself with Tash and Sangee like so so much!

Have also finally bonded with Adrielle.
That lil Chipmunk has gotten used to me like finally.
I love the way she strokes my face, pinches me, her gundu arms and legs, her expressions, her giggles and everything.
Guess she fell from Venus(The planet of Beauty)

Yesterday, was Mathan's Birthday.
Just a simple celebration, seafood and cake!
Such a lucky fella.
New phone with a hell sum of money!

& so many outings coming up.
One after the other.
Gotta start looking for those Part time Jobs soon!

Home? Family? Unity?

2010-06-05T21:17:00.000-07:00

If only, i could bring my family together to spend some time with each other.

If only, we could all sit down for Dinner, talk to each other and laugh away telling stories and jokes to each other.

If only, my mom could be a little more gentle, caring & loving.

If only, Dad could be more patient and dont put all his time in work, i dont want his money, just a lil of his time.

If only, my both sisters could stop bickering away and be more friendly with each other.

If only, what i wrote above could happen.

My house is never a house anymore.

Fights & Fights & Fights.

Everyday's full of problems, in this darned house.

I dont wish to stay here anymore.

Everyone's fighting with everyone.

& i dont feel at peace anymore.

Im not happy.

Best part.

The spare Television in my house got stolen.

Money's disappearing.

& yesterday night, i discovered that my gold earrings are missing.

Very sure of the thief and really ANGRY!

I Wish ..................................

The Ups & Downs!

2010-05-31T09:17:00.000-07:00

& She'll always be my Bestie!

I Love You, Jiviya Raj.

You'll never know how much you mean to me.

Forever & Ever.

Haha.

Some things seem to be good while some's still going bad.

I've got a job thanks to Jivi.

Working together with Ash annae, Jivi & Preetz can be loads of fun.

& Marina Bay Sands is good.

Dont really fancy being a Banquet waiter, but what can i do?

Need the cash.

I've come to realise one thing.

Thou people say that friends cant be trusted and all,

I love my people alot.

Jiviya, Preeta, Ash, Tash, Vicky, Sangee, Didi, Bunny, Chicken Lil, Jaan, Sashi, Jolene, Alvin, Turca, Murali, Uvanneh!

These people mean a lot to me.

Sorry if i missed out names.

These people love me with their heart.

Though i get scolded here and there, disturbed and stuff.

I know i'm loved and life without these people is unimaginable.

Sadly, i wished my Family had a much better bonding.

If only, i could have my loving family back together.

Everything would be much better.

But, that's one thing that's least likely to happen.

Had a really fun church outing, trip to Pasir Ris Beach.

Badly wanted to go to the beach and it was fulfilled in the end.

Enjoyed myself so much.

Cycled with PF from one end of Pasir Ris Park, to almost the other end.

Had so much fun, with my fav sitting spot and the maze and all.

The games were fun too, with all the nonsense happening.

& Lastly, Adrielle, was a dear.

She stroked me and allowed me to carry her and she even giggled.

Yessaaa.

Today, collected pay with Jivi and waited for Tash and Roy to join us.

Headed over to Far East Plaza.

Got Suspenders and a head set for myself.

And i really pigged out today.

I ate and ate, but still wasnt filled.

A Doughnut, Chicken Rice, Fries, Mutton Briyani, Fish Cutlet, Cookie, Honey Bourbon Chicken Sandwich, Maggi Goreng.

Filled!

I Miss you as a whole!

2010-05-19T09:49:00.000-07:00

I miss you so much!

So fucking much, more than i would let on.

& more than how much you would ever know.

But you dont seem to bother.

You never seem to call, unless it's a favour.

There are points when you call, but i have other plans.

Cause your calls are totally random.

I miss having late night meetups with you.

Sneaking out of our houses.

Everyday meetings.

Talking about everything under the sun.

Going out here and there, having so much of fun times.

Laughing our ass off, potluck lunches.

Sudden surprises.

I Miss Every Single Thing About You.

Cause You Are No More You!

Couldnt believe that you had to choose to quarrel with me over a FB status.

I've got nothing else to say.

Best, split into two directions...

New Friends:)

2010-05-16T20:38:00.000-07:00

New Friends are just so nice to have.
& that is what that has been happening.
Have made quite a number of friends.

Friday went over to see Mummy.
Was Glad to see that woman, and when she saw me, she gave me that wide smile.
Was Happy.
Spent good time with her.
Got to see Chicken Lil too and i dont know why, i really like him alot.
His moonji is enough to brighten someone's day.

Left to meet Tash, Sangee, John, Preetz and Ash annae.
Was waiting for John to drive the van to BB.
He took long enough.
Jumped into the van and headed off to Changi.
Was a fast trip & in no time, we met Sham.
That poor fella was so drunk already.

Got something to eat.
& the rest of the Vetaikaaran group came.
Everything seemed so awkward and funny.
It was like two separate groups at first.
Then, once all of us were introduced, things got better.
Friendly conversation seemed to be flying around.

Walked to OCH and was dragging down a liquor bottle on the way, Absolut Vodka!
Started raining halfway and we got stuck at the busstop.
Ended up talking shit and all and then, started walking to OCH.
Aetos security had taken over the place and so we had to go through the hill into the place.
& My, my, my.
The place looked so different.
Considerably clean, and the walls all were white!
Ended up scaring Tash and we were running all over the place, laughing our heads off.
Then, the police came.
They were shining torches all over.
& we were like playing terrorist game with them.
It was so so fun.
The way we hid and ran about, away from the police.

Walked back to the pondo & finished up 2 bottles of Chivas Regal.
Had a lot of fun and i enjoyed the night with all of them.
Sham (V), HariBoy (V), Sara (V), Vicky (V), Tash, Sangee, John, Ash, Preetz!:D

Headed back to BB and tried getting to sleep to no avail.
Ended up meeting Vicky at his place at night.
Was so happy to see that Fucker.
He has been missing like so long.

Bought King Roberts Scotch.
Sat down and once again it started.
Hehehe.
We ended up speaking about Ghost stories.
Till my hair stood at it's ends and he had goosebumps all over.
Left in the early morning.
Sangee and I was like super sleepy.

Headed home and i was flat for like 12 hours!
Totally shocked.
Woke up and i had this really weird feeling to eat Old Chang Kee...
Short stroll to Westmall and was nibbling away.

& I'm On Time For School Today! YESSSAAA!

The Hate & Love Nature

2010-05-11T09:17:00.000-07:00

Everything's in the way i think.

If i look at it from a negative perspective, then it goes bad.

Shall see through light even through hard times.

I really feel that the word 'Friendship' is being misused nowadays.

Why are there quarrels, misunderstandings and fights between everyone?

Why so much of dislike or hatred for one another?

Why can't we learn to Forgive, Forget and love each other?

Human nature is prone to Hate rather than to Love.

Can't everything revert back to how it was.

I am like stuck in the middle of everything.

& just cause of that, am really worried that people might think that i am supporting a certain side.

I just dont understand what wrong i did.

Why must people talk to me in a rude manner when i aint involved in any problems?

I have decided to just go my way & people who want me, i shall be with them.

I dont wish to feel uncomfortable or unwanted anywhere.

I really want to be happy with my loved ones.

Every single one means a lot to me, but in the end, FTW, cause people think that these are just words printed with no meaning behind them.

Gotta go to school tomorrow once again.

Am gonna look at waking up for school in a positive way too.

That would be of much help for me!

& I cant wait for Friday Night!

(Ganesh annae, Lavernia akka, Preeta, Ashok annae, John, Sangee, Jivi, Michal & more)

Counting down! (Yipppeeee!)

The Absolute Mess!

2010-05-03T08:26:00.000-07:00

& that will be my life.
An absolute mess.
I dont know what to make out of life.
& what i'm supposed to do.
There are days that i feel that i want to let go of everything and walk away.
But i cant.
I gotta be strong and face every single thing.

1)I aint going school properly. Skipped countless days.
2)Wasting my life away, with no motive of whatsoever.
3)Not been able to sort things out.
4)Problems with clique and others.
My list could drag on further.

I really have to start sorting things out and working my way through.
Before i end up as a, DISASTER!

What i've been up to recently:
- Had a hell of a time at Club Maya with Vicky, Jivi and Sangee (Wild Night)
- Am dancing for a show on Mother's Day! (Fun, Fun, Fun!)
- Celebrated John's Birthday. Caught Sura & ended up looking for wrong people at wrong alleyways!
- Chicken Little's Birthday, seemed like a blast, but the ending was a real BLAST!

I MISS JOLENE!
I wish she was beside me 24/7.
I could talk to her till the end of time and i could go on and on after that too.
& I so miss Jiviya.
It is never the same anymore, sadly:(

Sleepless Nights complimented with a Confused Mind

2010-04-21T22:09:00.000-07:00

Haven't been able to sleep, the past few nights.
Every time i close my eyes, i can only see images.
Couldnt sleep well at all.
Have only had about 3 hours worth of sleep in like two days.
Result of my droopy eyes.
Feeling so tired.

Why am i not able to sleep?
A lot on my mind lately.
Or is it because of, YOU!
I really cant find the answer to anything.

Compromised.
Hmph.
Will never be able to forgive or forget that.
+ the add ons which followed.
My mind is just totalled.

The blame aint on Love.
Its on how we make it out to be.
Rather than condemning Love,
It would be better if people looked at how it went wrong.

AM JUST SO OVER DRAMA!=D

My Surprise- Day!:D

2010-04-21T11:04:00.000-07:00

Life is always full of Drama.
Especially when it belongs to an Indian's.
That's the sad fact.
Something small is blown up to be like a Mega-serial.
Have never understood why is that so.
My realization is that: An Indian just loves to exaggerate everything!

Tuesday was like superrr Fun!
Woke up super late & poor Murali was waiting for me for like two hours.
Had a fast shower and rushed off to Westmall.
Met him there and headed off to CoffeeBean.
I had Chocolate Mudpie and he had some Chocolate Thousand.
The cakes were heavenly.
& it was his treat for my Birthday (which took place a month ago)

Then, came the present.
It was a really nice pair of Gold earrings.
Just the simple rings, which looked damn nice.
Was super super shocked.

Took a cab & headed to Suntec City.
It was fun walking around with him.
That poor boy didnt know how to go about in Cityhall
& i had to guide him around.
All the crap that he did.
Was so so crazy.
Ended up at Kenny Rogers.
My all time favourite restaurant.

Had Kenny's Quarters.
& Red Wine.
=)

Ended up at the Arcade and was fuzing about there.
Had so much fun.
Thanks crazy fella.
I enjoyed my time with you.

School's on the roll!

2010-04-18T20:32:00.000-07:00

Still not used to being back at school!...
Unable to wake up, used to the late late sleeping habit...
Sadly, this cant go on any longer...
Gotta change my sleeping habits, or i'm either going to absent for school or be late every single day...

Day One was quite okay...
Was good to be in school with the Group!...
Love being around them...
Classmates were quite friendly, though a few of em just gave me that bitch kin-na face...
Wahahah...

Skipped Day two of school due to waking up at 1p.m.
Am just wasting my life away...
Like seriously...
I gotta start charting down proper aims and goals...

Saturday was gone with youth and a movie...
Shutter island!...
The movie drove me insane...
I felt like i was the one who was going mad...
Really confusing storyline...
Got lost a little here and there...
But i kind of like the movie...
Heheheh...

Third day of school...
& here i am...
So bored and all alone...
But it's okay...
School's important!:D

SAVE SAVE SAVE! Save like your ass depended on it:)

Reviews! Wahahaha:D

2010-04-13T10:35:00.000-07:00

Have been missing out on the reviews...
Am just procrastinating on doing things...
Wahahah...
So here they are...
3 movie reviews!...

A real mind-boggling thriller with a sharp twist!
Was really lost and confused at a certain point of time...
The sound effects could have been made a little more scary...
There was quite a bit of Gory Scenes...
This movie plays with a flashback based on a man's perspective...
It goes to his memories of WW2 and back to Shutter Island...
Kinda exciting...
8/10:D

This is the my type of movie!...

Enjoyed myself quite a bit...

Have always been fascinated by Greek Mythology...

Therefore, this was my favourite...

Everything looked very realistic except for Medusa...

She looked more like a cartoon in this movie...

It was so nice looking at all those legendary creatures...

Heaps of enjoyment ISAY!

Movie rating: 10/10:D

Hmmm...

I would give this movie a 6, being Singapore's first tamil film to be out...

I didnt enjoy this movie so much...

The jokes were funny, but not really laughable...

Music was a bit off...

The actors did a good job though...
Especially Vishnu!...

Trying to portray a gangster's life...

Done!:D

OMG! What's wrong with me?!?!

2010-04-13T10:13:00.000-07:00

I went to my blog and all i could think was:
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU GURU? WHY ARE YOU AVOIDING YOUR BLOG?
Feel so terrible that i havent updated in such a long time...
Here i am back with recent events!

Recently, i havent been able to sleep!
Trying my best to sleep, but it aint working, so if any of you nice souls out there have any ideas on sleeping early please let me know...
Didint get sleep for three days!
On friday, i went to catch a midnight show with Ashok annae, John and Preeta!
Really fun to hang out with them...
Went to catch Paiyaa and Thambikku Indha Ooru!
Super nice la...
& i had so much fun with these idiots!

Left the theatre and rushed to Vicky's house...
Had a fast shower, breakfast and all and left for his POP with his mom and brother!...
The moment i saw him march him, i was like, "WOAH! VICKY?"
Really proud of you!...
He did a splendid job and i felt his joy when he through his beret in the air!...

Went back to his house, got dressed and left for Clash Of The Titans...
Superb Movie and i really enjoyed myself...
Vicky gave me a treat for almost everything...
Went to my granny's place for dinner...
It was her Birthday...
After the cake cutting ceremony, left for home...

Fatigue!...
Fell asleep and missed Church, Sad!
Woke up and had to apologise to Vicky a million times...
Rushed to the bathroom and next, i was in West Coast...
Really happy to see mummy after so long..
Yippeeee....
Wahahaha!...
Ate KFC like a pig and was lazing about in the house...
Had so much to talk to everyone!...
Drank a little Bounquillo from Alvin and Lone Star!...
Wehehehehe...

Went home and off to bed and woke up...
Had a last minute plan to meet up at Jessica's place..
The whole group...
My organizing skills and most of the group was there...
Had so much fun especially with Kristen...
He is my beautiful love...
I love him so so much...
A child that i so want as mine...
Sadly, he isnt...
I had no heart to leave him...
Had so much of fun chatting and all...
Sadly, we had to leave...

Today, another meetup with my peeps...
To watch yet another tamil movie done by Singapore...
Movie name is Gurushetram...
Really different and commendable effort for a tamil movie...
So happy to see Becky after so long...
Had long Johns and left for Batok and Vicky bought Jack Daniels...
Haiz...
Wahahahaha!...

Tomorrow, CYCLING!
ECP, here i come:D

On the way to Yishun!...

Vicky is now Private Vicky! Congratulations boy!

Kristen is love! He is just so loved by everyone! Makes everyone smile:D

Groupie at Jessica's place:D

Father God loves me!

2010-04-04T01:23:00.000-07:00

Yesterday started off with a rush!
I left my house in a hurry and took a cab to Little India...
Initial idea was to watch Paiyaa, with Sangee, Tash, Preetz, Ash annae and John...
Thanks to the screwed roads of Singapore, i payed a bomb for my cab fare!...
Plus i was late for the movie, sadly...

Therefore, movie was postponed to next Saturday!...
Lucky, the church van came to our rescue...
Got in and went over to Gandhi's for Lunch!...
& i was like super filled...
Had so much fun eating and talking all kind'a shit!
The collection of money to pay was super super funny...

All of us were bloated and we couldnt walk properly...
Took the van and headed to City Square Mall...
Over there, went about window shopping!...
Tash was like super cutee...
She was looking for job opportunities that she was stopping at every store!...
Found a few shoes and clothes that i liked!...
Gotta wait for payday sadly...

Then, Maha and Jennifer came...
After a little of fidgeting about, we left for Ecstatica 2010...
Tash left for home...
& boy, i enjoyed myself...
As usual, youth concert and caught a few ladies staring at me...
No eye contact this time...

Really enjoyed the concert especially the mime depicting how heaven is created and the sin following!...
Really enjoyed myself like so so much yesterday!...
& i feel that i gotta do something for the Church!...

& for that someone...
I know what you wrote and i am gonna pretend like i know nothing...
Cause no matter what i say, it never gets into your head and i dont wish to waste my breath nor to spoil my happiness brooding over little little things...

Remember me!

2010-03-31T15:40:00.000-07:00

A movie that i went to catch today...

I wasnt expecting much from this movie at the start...

But this movie is simply Beautiful!...

I enjoyed this movie like so so much...

It really had an impact on me...
Especially the ending...

I didnt expect it even a little...

A really different storyline...

Pattinson did a good job!...

The emotions were brought out well...

A must watch movie especially for people who favour sentiments, romance and those cheesy love movies...

It was really worth my time...

A very simple story with not much of complications...

The duration was a little long though...

The movie lasted for like 2 hours...

My rating would be 7.5/10

Smashing 18th!

2010-03-31T15:21:00.000-07:00

Back on the Blogger!...

Now that i got time off work, i feel the need to blog!

So let's see how my Birthday went...

Firstly, thanks to everyone who wished me...

Reaaly really well apprecciated...

Woke up in the morning as i was instructed to...

Got ready and realised that i was late...

Took a cab to West Coast and ended at Mummy's place...

Was happy to see the three angels of the house...

They told me that the others are only coming over for tea and that i have to go out with the three of them...

Was a little upset that the group was not going to turn up...

Got into the cab and i guess mummy had already instructed the driver on where he was supposed to go...

Ended up at Merchant Road and before i could figure things out, i was sitting down at RiverWalk Tandoori...

Before i could look around, people started pouncing on me...

My clique actually surprised me at the restaurant itself!...

It was so so nice to see the whole group there...

I was gloating and could not stop showing off my pearly whites...

Went to get the food and woah, the food was totally marvellous...

I was like enjoying myself so so much...

After lunch, everyone headed over to mummy's place...

I ended up playing some game with Didi and Chachi which led to my Bday Present...

I actually got 18 tongue studs from them...

Wahahaha!...

Then, the guys brought me down, to so called 'Bash' me up...

Part of their distraction...

And then came the cake...

It was a really wonderful cake from SeventhMenna...

The cake alone cost 120 bucks...

I was like 'Woah'...

So after lots of Chit Chat and eating and all everyone started to clear out...

I rushed to the salon and got my hair done...

Then, went home and started getting ready...

Before i knew it, i was in the cab with Indra and Tash...

Reached Clarke Quay and met the whole clique!...

More of em were there...

And i got anoother present from Michal and Zac...

Chivas Regal (Thanks so much guys)...

The bloody bottle got overturned into my mouth...

I got a little high after being forced to sniff the liquor...

After Drinking my life away, we entered Club Maya!...

Ended up dancing the night away...

My name got called out so many times...

& when i got myself a small break to smoke, Govan pulled me into the dancefloor and pushed me onto the stage...

Jessica then came holding a cake and everyone started singing the birthday song...
Even the DJ...

I was like super embarassed and super touched...

Cut the cake and my favourite song was played...
A dedication from my little ones...

After that song, i was once again called onto the stage...

Everyone was wondering what was that for as this wasnt part of anyone's plan...

It was a surprise from the Bartender...

He actually poured a bottle of Smirnoff down my throat...

I could finish it but i was being forced by everyone else...

It was such a fun night...

People whom i didnt know knew me...

It was really kinna cool and all...

After club, everyone went for a small meal and cabs were taken to Sangee's house...

Everyone was like super flat and the next day came...

I had to meet Vicky...

So i hurried home, Mind you my legs were killing me...

Got ready once again and headed to clarke quay again (Vicky's instructions)

Ended up at CafeIguana with him...

MEXICAN FOOD!

But the poor boy didnt enjoy even a little of the food!...

Sadly...

Then we had some shots and stuff and were hanging around!...

My Birthday was like super wonderful and memorable...

Will never be able to forget it...

Thanks to everyone who made it special for me:D

My cake:D

Ladies of the night:)

My shots with Vicky!

For more photos, refer to my FB!:D

Life's on the roll!

2010-03-06T18:13:00.000-08:00

Simply love how things are working out for me right now!

Have found a really good job and it's full of fun people that i cant seem to look at the time when i would have to finally bid them farewell and carry on with school!...

Hours seem to fly really fast during work and i find myself home even before i know it!...

Every single one of them working there are sweethearts!:D

Have been putting up at Sangee's house for the past couple of days due to my 'Always-so-late' problem...

Went out for Seesha last week...

Was really good to relax and have some fun with my maties!

& the amount of fun we had cannot be measured!...

What with the dancing, singing, talking, jokes and what more...

Not forgetting beer and Seesha!...

Really fun...

& i like havent slept for like umpteen hours right now...

Woke up Saturday 10am...

Bustled about and somehow made my way for Youth Service...

Following that, rushed off to Bugis to do a bit of shopping...

Nothing like spending for yourself once in a while!...

Had Subway for dinner...

& sent Samuel off( So happy to be with him after so long)...

Then, took the train to meet Sashi, Bunny and Thani...

Tried to get tickets at Yishun to no avail and rushed off in a cab to Golden Mile!...

Struck Jackpot!...

Didi and Mummy took a cab down and movie!...

Watched two movies and my eyes were already so droopy!...

Then, took a cab to West Coast Park and had Macs for Breakfast...

Then, settled down to our usual nonsense and all...

Had so much fun!...

& finally, i took a cab back home...

My wallet is like totally empty...

But not to worry!...

CAUSE PAYDAY IS TODAY:D

Really difficult to judge this movie...

Has a slow feel to it with a real shocking twist!...

Which puts everyone in a shock...

I would say really romantice...

Advisable for couples!...

:D:D:D

The Valentine:D

2010-02-16T07:31:00.000-08:00

Valentine's Day was super romantic this year...
I know that people have said things like, "Everyday should be like Valentine's Day" or "Who cares about Valentine's Day?"...
However, what i feel is that these kinna days make you remember how much you love your angel...
& it wouldnt hurt to spend a lil over the budget on these kinna days...

Got up, just to realise that i couldnt make it to church...
Therefore, went about getting the presents done and got my clothes ready!...
Finally, when i got ready, i left to Yishun to pick up the bouquet!...
From all over, smiles were being exchanged from strangers...
Met Chachi at Yishun and got our bouquets!...

Had to go over to Causeway point to get his present wrapped up!...
& then, proceeded on towards West Coast...
Finally reached Anbu Illam...
Surprised the ladies with a bouquet!...
Made a card for mummy...
& presents were being exchanged!

Both the ladies looked super beautiful!...
Was lost in my Baby's beauty...
& then came the presents opening part!...
I GOT AN X3 PHONE!...
What i've always wanted...
Yipppeeee:D

& then got a cab, rushed over to VivoCity where i gave her, her 1st surprise!...
It was the movie Valentine's Day...
Baby was just so shocked!...
& madam shocked me with heels...
The movie was something different and beautiful!...

Following that, headed over to Clarke Quay for baby's next surprise!...
I lied to her and rushed her tilll the end where we appeared outside WineGarage!...
Was a really posh place & the ambience was just perfect!...
The look on her face was just classic!...
That shocked, 'What am i doing here?' kinna expression...
The food was simply superb!
& by the time we left the restaurant, we were a lil tipsy!...

OVERALL, this was a superb Valentine's Day...
Stayed at baby's place till like 3am in the morn...
ENJOYED!:)

Back to the life of Gurumurthi S/O Ramalengam!

2010-02-16T07:18:00.000-08:00

Updates! Updates! Updates!
So much to say...
But i know that this post will be a rushed one!...
So much has happened...
School's over...
Exams all done, waiting for posting...

& the last day of school had to be a major screwup!...
The clique was having problems with two guys in RP...
Thingss got out-of-hand...
Govan got whacked up...
Admitted and now recovering...

You can never know what happens every minute of your life...
One second you're here, another second dead!...
Haiz...
Life and it's mysteries...

Caught a movie...
Theeradha Vilayathu Pillai...
A wonderful love story...
Ten upon ten as i really loved it alot...
Something different and worth watching...
:D

& now, back to the sad me...
I really missed you...
& today when i see you...
There seems to be a barrier...
We arent the same...
I want the OLD you back, i really do!...
The new you seems so fake...
I just hope that you know what you are doing...
Missed!

The special superglue!...

2010-02-07T03:15:00.000-08:00

Why am i faking myself that your presence is still here when you're gone?...

Why do i find myself stoning all of a sudden, lost in warped dreams of you?...

Why do i find myself hoping or wishing that you would be here, in my arms, so that i could wipe my tears on your soft and feather-like fur?...

Why did you have to leave me and go?...

Once upon a time, my family was held together by you...
You were like our favourite brand of superglue!...

It was for your sake that my family did not break apart...

You brought us closer and tightened bonds between all of us...

You were the safekeeper to all my secrets...

The one who kept me warm on those days where i felt so cold even though the sun was blazing...

The one who never got tired of looking into my eyes...

The greedy fella who would turn your eyes to maximum pressure, so as to get some form of a 'treat' from one of us...

The lil comic who spread love and joy around this hellzone...

You made life seem more bearable...

Just you and only, you...

Thoughts of you can never leave...

I never seem to tear anymore...

Nor do i speak much about you....

But let me assure you, my precious gem...

There can never be another you!...

I'm missing you...

A girl's answer to JUSTICE...

2010-02-01T21:37:00.000-08:00

Feeling really enraged after stumbling across a certain article...

Justice was never served to a girl who was tortured to death within a span of 44 days...

To people who get affected by gory bits of information i would advise them not to continue reading any further...

I'd rather publicise what exactly was done to her, so that you people would be able to feel the anger that i am feeling against these bastards...

An utter disgrace to men...

This is how the story goes...

Junko Furuta, a 16 year old girl, was kidnapped by four boys, two 17 and two 19...

She was forced into lying to her parents that she had ran away and was beaten into posing as one of the boy's gf to escape parents' suspicion...

According to the bastards' statements at their trial, the four of them confessed that they had raped her, beat her, introduced foreign objects including an iron rod into her vagina, made her drink her own urine and was fed cockroaches, inserted fireworks into her anus, and set them off, forced Furuta to masturbate, cut her nipple with pliers, dropped dumbbells onto her stomach, and burned her with cigarettes and lighters. (One of the burnings was punishment for attempting to call the police.) At one point her injuries were so severe that according to one of the boys it took more than an hour for her to crawl downstairs to use the bathroom. They also related that “possibly a hundred different people” knew that Furuta had been imprisoned there, but it is not clear if this means they visited the house at different times while she was imprisoned there, or themselves either raped or abused her. When the boys refused to let her leave, she begged them on several occasions to “kill (her) and get it over with”.

DAY 1: November 22, 1988: Kidnapped

Kept captive in house, and posed as one of boy’s gf

Raped(over 400 times in total)

Forced to call her parents and tell them she had run away

Starved and malnutritioned

Fed cockroaches to eat and urine to drink

Forced to masturbate

Forced to strip in front of others

Burned with cigarette lighters

Foreign objects inserted into her vagina/anus

DAY 11: December 1, 1988: Severely beat up countless times

Face held against concrete ground and jumped on

Hands tied to ceiling and body used as a punching bag

Nose filled with so much blood that she can only breath through her mouth

Dumbbells dropped onto her stomach

Vomited when tried to drink water (her stomach couldn’t accept it)

Tried to escape and punished by cigarette burning on arms

Flammable liquid poured on her feet and legs, then lit on fire

Bottle inserted into her anus, causing injury

DAY 20: December10, 1989: Unable to walk properly due to severe leg burns

Beat with bamboo sticks

Fireworks inserted into anus and lit

Hands smashed by weights and fingernails cracked

Beaten with golf club

Cigarettes inserted into vagina

Beaten with iron rods repeatedly

Winter; forced outside to sleep in balcony

Skewers of grilled chicken inserted into her vagina and anus, causing bleeding

DAY 30: Hot wax dripped onto face

Eyelids burned by cigarette lighter

Stabbed with sewing needles in chest area

Left nipple cut and destroyed with pliers

Hot light bulb inserted into her vagina

Heavy bleeding from vagina due to scissors insertion

Unable to urinate properly

Injuries were so severe that it took over an hour for her to crawl downstairs and use the bathroom

Eardrums severely damaged

Extreme reduced brain size

DAY 40: Begged her torturers to “kill her and get it over with”
January 1, 1989: Junko greets the New Years Day alone

Body mutilated

Unable to move from the ground

DAY 44: January 4, 1989: The four boys beat her mutilated body with an iron barbell, using a loss at the game of Mah-jongg as a pretext. She is profusely bleeding from her mouth and nose. They put a candle’s flame to her face and eyes.
Then, lighter fluid was poured onto her legs, arms, face and stomach, and then lit on fire. This final torture lasted for a time of two hours.
Junko Furuta died later that day, in pain and alone. Nothing could compare 44 days of suffering she had to go through.

Can you guys imagine the amount of pain she went through...
Justice was never served and the boys were kept in Jail for only a period of 8 years...

Feeling so much of hatred towards them...

Imagine the agony she went through...

I just cant accept it that these boys are free men and are roaming about in Japan right now...

God bless the girl and may she rest in peace...

Getting all 'tooth'-ed

2010-02-01T19:54:00.000-08:00

Went to catch a super hilarious movie yesterday with my ladylove and Vicky:)
Such a super fun fun movie...
Was laughing my head off...
The Tooth Fairy is a must watch...
Two thumbs up:)

Lately, i feel that i am not getting proper sleep of any kind...
Feeling so tired and lazy for just the simplest things...
& i guess i am suffering from some form of a sleeping disorder...
Can someone tell me what's going on?...

All he yearns for is HER...

2010-01-31T10:01:00.000-08:00

We have been labelled for fighting half our lives away...

We scream at each other...

We end up in tears...

We get jealous and the list may go on...

But i just want to let my Babygirl know that she's the one for me...

& i would want no one else...

ONLY HER!...

My cardiac has captured her and positioned her form in place...

The precious gem which would only be able to brighten my life...

I so miss having fun times with you...

I miss telling you how much i love you...

I miss irritating you...

I miss spending so much of secretive time in your house...

I miss that crazy lil innocence of yours...

Thinking back, i really missed how we used to be...

I really really wish we could be back to how we were...

& i know that we will....

I just want to let you know that you have taken a position in my life that no one can ever replace...

And therefore, i love you my precious lil banana fritters:D

Someone get me a book!...

2010-01-30T04:54:00.000-08:00

I need help...
I want to own a book...
A really special one...
One that teaches me how to understand a girl...
Or to at least read her...

You have said your part on how irritated you were and stuff...
You even listed your hurts...
Think back and you will realise how you spoke to me...
It was like i was forcing something on you...
You were talking like you were not bothered...
& lastly, you brought a group of people to CWP for nothing...

Yet, you can be pissed at me...
& vent your irritation on others...
In what way would that be fair?...
Yet, you have every right to be pissed and hurt?...

Yesterday night was my fault...
I purposely picked the fight cause of my anger...
I've apologised and i think i dont have to say anything more...
Cause i know that i did no wrong except for the conversation at night...
Nothing more to add...

When mom's outta town!...

2010-01-28T17:44:00.000-08:00

It's time to partaye!...
And that's what i'm gonna be doing...
Went out and got two books from e library yesterday...
Gotta settle down to some quality reading time...

& i'm like going out later...
Meeting mummy and following her for a lil shop shop...
& maybe lunch out!...
Vicky, Sashi, Didi and Sangee will be coming too...
Cant wait, MEETUP SESSION:)

Another thing that i'm looking forward to would be...
SATURDAY!...
Everyone's coming over...
Jivi, Thani, Tash, Ivy, Vicky, Michal, Rueben(Sangee's to be BF) and his friend...
Gonna be like so so much of fun...
& Jim Beam, Dewar's and Bombay Sapphire would be joining us too...
:)

*Fun times are here*

January's closing!

2010-01-26T20:49:00.000-08:00

& it's like super fast that a month has flew off...
I have not achieved anything for this month...

In actual fact,
I got myself into a temporary suspension in my workplace...
Slacked e month away...
Skipped school like about ten times...
Pay was like super pathetic...
Lost the trust of a particular person...

In conclusion, January was totally wasted...
February's starting and exams are coming with it...
For the month of February,
1) I want to complete my exams with proper studying...
2) Get a book from the library for reading...
3) Get my job at NUH and go to work properly...
4) Start checking out more about my course and where it would lead me to
5) Plan out February 14(Perfect Date)
6) Equal out my time for all my loved ones!:)

There!...
I feel better now that i have planned all these out...
So much for January...
:(

Nostalgia...

2010-01-24T19:27:00.000-08:00

Was missing the lil crazy moron for like so so long...
A small meet- up and headed to town...
And we talked and talked and talked...
Time just flew too fast...

Went to catch It's Complicated...
It's e kind of movie that follows the storyline of 'The proposal' and 'The Ugly Truth'...
Overall, a really beautiful movie...
Ten stars and i've never rated a movie so high!
So it should be really good right?...

Had lunch at Pastamania and we were lazing around...
Got a lil present for Jolene's brother...
And i had to rush off to Paya Lebar...
Met up with Vicky, Sashi, Didi and Thani...
Ended up late for e prayers...
:(

& things are alright...

She couldnt stop taking photos of me smoking...

I like the shot!

You will never understand...

2010-01-22T07:33:00.000-08:00

I seriously didnt understand what was happening yesterday...
I felt that my whole world was spinning on all ends...
All i can tell you is that i am super disappointed in you...
:(

I seriously dont understand what it is that we have to fight every single day!
I'm tired, really tired of fighting...
I feel so weak and so lost...
The way you spoke to me...
Hung up on me continuously...
I just cant bring myself to think that it was you who was speaking...

Or let me think, was someone else instigating you?...
I really have no clue of whatsoever...
I just dont understand...
After scolding me so much and making me call you continuously...
& when finally i give up...
You start messaging me to call you...

I mean i am not trying to justify myself...
The only thing i am trying to tell you is that stopping you from doing something negative= ruining your life?...
I dont seem to understand how that works...
I can never be your Mr.Right Guy...

Hearing to Jivi's voice yesterday just made me break down...
After so long, i cried...
I couldnt force back my tears...
Disappointing, every one of them disappointed me...

Thanks so much for Yesterday night Jiv...
Without you i would not have been able to pull through...
Was really cheered up after our little sneak meetup:)

TOMORROW= DAYOUTWITHJOLENE:)

& what you hear can SHOCK you!

2010-01-18T17:35:00.000-08:00

It's so true when people say that 'Life is unpredictable'~!
Cheers to that...
Cause that is what my life is changing into...
You can never know what happens the next day....
So drama-mama....
:(

Hmmm....
Let's see....
I am such a klutz....
Friday, during cocktail knocked a glass of beer and three glasses of soft drinks on myself...
Got myself a lil tipsy at work thanks to Martel and e bartender!
Slept over at Jivi's...

Saturday, help out with the poster...
Had a super fun lunch with Jivi's mom feeding us (It was like super cutee... We were crowding around her and she was making rice balls and feeding us, Old times:()
Get ready and head to Ceylon Sports club...
Scream my lungs out...
A small get-to-know-Jivi's-family session over there...

Sunday, miss Church...
End up at Escape with Vicky, Ganeson annae, Lavan akka, Sangee, Michal and Thani...
A time of my life...
Disaster scene at Pirate ship went dizzy child decides to puke just so close to me...
Fun with e Go-Karts...
Get wet at Wet & Wild and decide to get wet again!
Act like a crazy dumbass child who's paranoid by running in a ball and falling all over the place...
& best of all, 2 new friends!
What else could be better?...

Monday, wake up and realise i missed class...
Hear the most SHOCKING news i have not heard in 17 years of my life...
Go paranoid!
Oh god!
Show me the way...
:(

& right now... MODULE SELECTION IS A MAJOR PROBLEM!

Pushing myself into a MESS!

2010-01-14T19:07:00.000-08:00

I dont know if i am doing the right thing here...
Should i be telling her everything...
After all she's my Best Friend!
However, she has a special someone and information might move....
I just dont want my didi getting into trouble for anything...

Feeling so horrible...
And i just cant take it when i keep secrets from her...
Its like as if im behaving like some traitor...
Argghhh....
How i wish i could not hear anything?...
It would be much better...

Anyways, Old Dogs turned out to be good...
It was better than the trailer which was posted...
Wouldnt mind watching it again...
*hints at someone*
Ahahahaha....

I really want to achieve something this year...
I want it to be a remarkable one!...
Hmmm...

Never Say Goodbye!

2010-01-12T18:03:00.000-08:00

I know i am like super super slow to be blogging about this movie now...

I should have watched it like three years back...

But since i decided to 'procrastinate'...

Ahahaha...

At least i managed to watch it, like Finally!...

Was not even a teeny weeny bit sleepy and so i decided to watch this movie...

& i did not regret the three and a half hours of sleep i wasted...

A wonderful and enlightening movie...

Full of sentiments and love...

A really unique story which really touched me...

Movies do not affect me easily...

But Sharukh Khan, Rani Mukherjee, Preity Zinta and Abhishek did a wonderful job...

The characters' emotions were portrayed beautifully...

Ten over ten for this flick:)

A must watch to those 'procrastinators' like me...

Updates

2010-01-12T17:59:00.000-08:00

& so the second week of school has started...
Time is like flying super fast...
Before i know it i'm in school...
Suddenly lessons are over and i'm out with my buddies...
Next i know i'm sleeping at home...
Same thing over and over again...

Cant wait for holidays to start once again...
Just four more weeks...
Must survive!...
Let me leave some updates on what happened during my first week since the start of a New Year...

Skipped school once...
Didnt go to work properly(peer pressure)...
Stay-over at Jivi's place...
Cant remember anything else...
Finished my second set of UTs...
Left with another set and i will be PROMOTED to Year 2!:)

New Year Resolutions and others:)

2010-01-04T09:21:00.000-08:00

Well...

I havent exactly posted my resolutions and how my new year went about...

So i went to Didi's place to help mummy out with cleaning up...

& as usual, food was stuffed into my mouth one after the other...

Haiz...

There was quite a bit of entertainment proudly done by me...

And mummy was laughing her head off...

Following that, got ready and Didi, Thani and myself left for Church...

Somehow everyone ended up there with lots of hustle and bustle...

Church was great with praise and worship...

We left during sermon and came back again...

Once the clock struck 12, Deevya pounced on me and started squeaking away...

hahaha...

Following that wishes started flying...

& the rest of the night was dedicated to smoking and drinking...

Had so much of fun and i really think that New Year was a blast...

Well, after thinking, i have three resolutions:

1) Cut down on smoking and drinking (as in seriously cut down)

2) Go to school almost everyday (You can never expect perfection)

3) Learn to prioritise everything i do

Today had a day out with Jivi like after so long...

It was good to be back like normal times...

I was laughing my head off with her...

We were just behaving like some 3- year old children...

Caught Avatar in 3D...

Was a last minute thing...

But the movie was worth watching...

Peeps,go and catch it!...

Ticking away...

2009-12-30T09:25:00.000-08:00

Time has been running really fast!
Before we realise it, new year would be greeting us...
A whole new start...
A change...
& i just hope that the coming here would bring everyone more goodness...
I want things to go right for me for the coming year...
& if it does not, i will make it go my way!...

This year has brought me through many tidal waves...
I have been pulled into the deepest ends of the sea...
and yet have also resurfaced at the top...
I am going to leave all bad things behind...
and am going to look at things in a different perspective...

New Year coutdown would be in Church...
Following that, would be GROUPMEETUP!
Yippee!...
Cant wait to see all my mates...
Gonna be like so super fun with them...

Pay-Day!

2009-12-28T10:33:00.000-08:00

Woke up at like 3pm and i was like OMG!
After a big hassle, ended up at Outram with Sangee and Indra...
Collected my pay and it was way beyond expectations...
Was totally happy and satisfied!
There was just this feeling where i was thinking how good would it be without working today...

However, sadly me and Sangee took the train to Orchard...
Michal arrives late!
& we end up getting sent home with no deduction of cash!...
Next thing we know, we end up at Bugis!
With three tickets to Sherlock Holmes...
Did a bit of shopping and i'm still not broke!
Yeah!...

Caught the movie and i felt that it was a really good movie...
Worth the money and the props and climax is really good...
Two thumbs up for this movie!
Go catch it peeps...
Nice...

& once again...
You do this to me...
What did i do?...
I really dont understand...
& people, this aint about my love life!!!

I promised to upload pictures so there...

Christmas Visitings:)

2009-12-25T10:23:00.000-08:00

Christmas this year has been a blast!

So many pictures have been taken...

Yet none are uploaded yet...

Soon soon...

Have been blessed abundantly this Christmas...

Did so many things...

Went to so many houses...

First time carolling...

Had loads and loads of fun!
& mostly, i was with all my loved ones...

On the 23rd, went Carolling with e JLC members...

It was my first time doing this...

Was a really interesting yet enjoyeable time...

Went from house to house singing carols...

& not forgetting pigging out at every house...

Started at 5pm and ended the next day at about 7am...

Got home...

Slept like a log till 4.30 and started bustling...

Got dressed and left to meet Michal and Kumaran annae...

Was a long time later that i saw him and i really missed him!...

We were walking around woodlands waiting for two princesses to reach...

Finally they came...

Started cracking to Deepan's house...

Was quite fun there...

Left at about am and headed to Sangeetha's place...

& yeap...

Got a nice wallet:)...

Woke up today and took a cab home...

Once again got dressed and left for my visitings...

So many houses to cover...

Was jumping from house to house...

Really enjoyed at Jordan's, Rebecca's and Michal's house...

Thanks so much guys...

Your'll really made my Christmas...

Fotos would be uploaded soon...

And tomorrow i will be seeing Vicky!...

Yippeee....

Town, here i come:)

& the fever has started!...

2009-12-19T09:35:00.000-08:00

Feels so good to have the Christmas spirit flying all around you!

I just feel Merry thinking about Christmas:)

Have been doing quite a bit of stuff...

Rushing around here and there to get quite a bit for my Drama...

I went to Masquerade at Arab Street and got my costume done for my role(Joseph)...

Was loads of fun in the shop...

We were like messing around with the clothes there...

An avalanche of photos would be coming soon...

Went to get Vettaikaaran tickets...
And boy, were we lucky!...

Got our tickets...

Went for the show...
& i was right once again...

Same story, bad song scenes, borderline pass...

Disappoinment even though Anushka was hot!

Performance went well today...

Had quite a bit of support...

& i guess i played out my role well...

Loved my costume...

& i think everyone deserve pats on their backs...

Carolling was a bit bad though...

However, i have to admit that i had my fun!

Lastly, i finally have saved enough to get my Christmas shopping done!

Orchard, here i come!...

I also got myself a mask to wear...

Christmas just makes me feel a little more alive...

Forcing problems away from my mind!

Yippee...

:):):)

BESTFRIENDSAREFOREVERANDARELWAYSMEANTTOBE!

Just moving!

2009-12-16T08:01:00.000-08:00

Life has been just moving in a rapid flow...

It's not getting worse or anything...

But just moving in a steady track...

Work, home, drama prac, Sangee & company...

This has become my life...

Jiviya and I...

We are no more like how we used to be...

Even when she sees me, she chooses to turn away...

Talk to someone else...

Pretend i dont exist...

Which really gets to my head!...

First time i wrote out her name straight on this blog!...

I dont understand why you are doing this to me...

Church isn't how it used to be...

I dont feel welcome...

I dont feel like i am with my family in Church!...

These are the few quirks here and there...

Christmas is arriving soon...

& i still need 60 bucks to complete my shopping!...

Ahhh...

Silencing yourself...

2009-12-13T09:01:00.000-08:00

I dont know why...
But recently keep getting this hunch...
I keep thinking that i am going to end up all alone...
That thought just scares me...
Therefore, i try to cut away connections...

Went swimming all by myself...
It was a different experience...
Was kinna fun...
& many people would have thought i am a retard because i was talking to myself...
What happens next?!?!...
I end up going to work alone...
I would never ever do this in my sane mind!...

I just feel so lonely nowadays...
And i dont know why...
It aint anyone's fault except for mine...
I am not the usual me...
Everyone keeps telling me that..
I know, i know, i know...

I really cant help myself...
Nor can i do anything...
I can give you a fake smile if you want me to...
Nothing else...
I badly miss Ashwin nowadays...
How i wish he was there to take care of me...
Feeling so miserable...

& he left...

2009-12-10T20:02:00.000-08:00

To my one and only all- time favourite brother...
This post is specially dedicated to you...
I've known you for almost two years...
A long stretch of time...
This special word, 'time', made us bond...
We learnt to understand each other...

I would never ever forget each and every single thing you have done for me...
You're really someone so special...
& now...
When i feel that my world is breaking apart...
And i think that i would have to fake every one of my smiles...
You decide to leave...
Or should i say you are made to...

I pray for your safety, protection and enjoy this fun period of life...
Four months is a long time...
& that smile of yours would immediately bring a smile on your face...
& now with tears, and brooding memories...
I bid you farewell...
Take care my brother...
You mean half the world to me...
I'll miss you!

So much to say... Yet words are stuck...

2009-12-06T20:43:00.000-08:00

Have given a long gap in between blogging...
This has been due to work and a few other problems...
Am shattered, broken, tired, weak and really sick...
Not blaming anyone this time...
It was my fault...

Have been the cause for so many tears...
I dont know how i am going to forgive myself...
I have hurt two people and there is no way i can change it...
Nor can i do anything about it...
Time heals all wounds...
And i hope that this is true...

Have been out for three days...
Michal's Birthday wasnt off to a good start, but it ended with a blast...
Will always be there for my lil dear...
Had fun staying out three nights...
I just love having gathering with friends...
It makes me feel whole and not forgetting complete...

19th is coming and we havent completed much stuff yet...
Am going to perform a dance and drama for Christmas...
Ahahaha...
Hope all goes well...
The dance is like totally superb and the drama aint too bad...

& right now...
I just dont wish for anything...
I feel broken...
I know that i should not be saying this as i am the one who started this whole shit...
I hurt so many people and i should have thought earlier...
But NO!!!
I've always been selfish...

I just want time to be alone...
All alone...
Maybe this loneliness might show me how to treasure people better...
Feeling so down and disturbed...

Where does contentment and self- fulfillment lie?...

2009-11-29T17:49:00.000-08:00

This question popped into my head as i was having a conversation with lil Becky...

That poor girl has been having it tough...

Hope things get better for her...

& now i ponder...

I am DEFINITELY not contented...

& why is that so?...

I feel that i have yet to achieve something in my life...

I want to bring glory to Father God...

I want to prove my parents wrong in their judgements...

Have so much to do....

& yet here i am lazing away...

Rotting half my life, falling into temptation's trap...

It's time i really decided on what i want...

& how do i go about achieving it...

Before it's too late...

And i start wishing that i could turn time back...

Anyway, people would be wondering why did i upload a photo of lil Vinesha...

On Saturday, was the lil one's baby naming ceremony...

She looked so pretty....

I dont know why, but there is really an attractive factor about this lil sweetheart...

Everyone agrees with me...

She has this pull such that when someone sees her, they immediately fall in love with her...

The girls did a good job in their dance...
Food was superb...

The hosts, especially Belle, was really entertaining...

Enjoyed myself quite alot...

I and Jivi got up to a bit of nonsense...

Hehehe, lil secrets there...

Was pissed by a certain person though...

After all that she did, she had the cheek to talk to me...

Moreover, to ask me what's wrong?...

Like WTF!

I dont like you and i dont need a counselling session from you, so just F-off...

Christmas is coming...

& i am starting work tomorrow...

Am going to be so busy from now on...

Haiz...

Gotta start saving lots of money...

Cant wait to go carolling and do up the drama...

The guys... After the naming ceremony...

Me and my beloved Didi...

Forever and ever... My annae,uncle and the ever- cutest Chachi-tharan...

A night in Ivy's house works miracles...

2009-11-26T18:49:00.000-08:00

Welll...
Close ones should know what happened from this photo...
Finally, we're talking...
It feels like a rock lifted out of my brain...
It feels easier to breathe and all...
Sounds so dramatic right?...
Be in my situation and your'll will know how it is...

Anyway, Ivy's house is becoming a hotspot for everyone...
Was so fun to spend the night there...
Had some wine that was stealthily taken...
My chest started burning like so freakin' badly...
Felt like i was draggin a can o' Barons...
In the end, all of us fell asleep one after the other...
But still enjoyed myself loads...

Now i dont understand why when one turns to be alright the other starts a fight...
Feeeling so irritated...
I dont know what do these people want from me...
One after the other...
They love fighting with me...
Arrrggghhhh....

Threesome idiots...

Kinna like this pic:)

ONEDAYOFBEINGGOODINMYTERMS:)

2009-11-24T22:28:00.000-08:00

Felt that i was a real good boy yesterday...
Went to school...
Came back home after that...
Changed and left for the gym...
Sam decided to accompany me after a few squabbles...
It was fun going out just with him after so long...

Had a good time at the gym...
It was only an hour and a half, but i felt that i had a good workout...
Should do this more often...
Going again on Friday morning...
Cant wait...

Following that...
We left and i was home by 8.30...
Couldnt believe that it was me...
But i did not feel bad or anything...
It felt good to be at home after so so long...

Birthdays are coming up soon...
Today's is my dearest Samuel's...
He has been a really nice cousin to me...
And i treasure him loads...
Happy Birthday cousin...
Mom's and Michal's one are next....

Found a job too...
Cant wait to start work...
Really need the cash...
Would really help me...
& i miss a little someone just a little bit..

& so are we walking separate ways?..

2009-11-23T20:44:00.000-08:00

I say this all the time...

But who cares?...

It's my blog...

I got all the right for the freedom of speech over here...

CHILDHOOD IS STILL THE BEST!!!

I miss all the fun things i used to do as a small boy...

I didnt have to go through hassles of living for other people...
I could be myself...

I would have been loved by everyone...

& now...

Nothing...

That's what i am...

I just dont understand what is being expected of me...

We are like two people with a rubber band around us...

We can run as far away from each other as possible...

But once the limit has been overridden...

We slam onto each other...

Or break through the bonds of the rubber band...

It's up to us to decide...

No talk...

Nothing...

It felt totally uncomfortable...

Anyway...

Yesterday night was a blast...

Had so much fun doing Hema aunty's birthday...

She was so happy...

Which reminds me that my mom's birthday ain't far away...

Gotta do something for that great superwoman of mine who has been there for me no matter what...

The shield which protects me from all the dangers...

ILOVEMYMOMALLTHETIME:)

Whom am i to turn to now?...

2009-11-22T05:48:00.000-08:00

Life has become close to unbearable...
I constantly get the feeling that i am unwanted all the time nowadays...
Nothing seems to improve this strange feeling...
& the factor which makes things worse is my classmates...
I so wish i was in W15G...
My current classmates are as fake as a pllastic snake...
I just feel so left out and irritated in class...

Have been calling people up to make myself feel better...
I just want to have lots of friends who treasure me...
& not play that two- headed game...
Am always sincere to my friends, but this is what i get...

Vicky's Birthday made things worse...
Things started off well...
With a good lunch and loads of surprises...
But as darkness took over...
Things became worse...

A certain someone made me feel even worse...
Constant shooting of vulgarities...
& the constant repetition, 'I dont want you!'...
Am not saying anything more...

& two friends whom i treasured over anyone else disappointed me the most...
After this...
I just dont want to expect anything from anyone...
Am better off leading life alone i guess...
It would help make things better...
Have been missing out on church too...
I have to turn to father god soon...
The only one who can pull me through this period of time...

STARTTRAINING!!!!

Unexplainable

2009-11-16T17:32:00.000-08:00

What is happening to the world?...
Arent there any nice humans around?...
Am feeling so fucked at the moment...
Totally pissed with a certain family...
Stop playing your games with me and trying to make me a joker...
Am over these childish games...
Grow up people please...

Have been meeting quite a number of my friends recently...
And am feeling so happy to see these certain peeps like after so long...
Especially Varshini...
We used to be besties...
I'm just happy that our separation isn't distinct even though we hadn't met in a while...

Caught Paranormal Activity...
Was a new experience...
The movie was kind'a interesting and i feel that it plays with your mind...
Second night i am waking up feeling worried...
Should stop picturing stuff...

Exams are totally completed...
Holidays should be coming soon...
& i so feel like hitting the gym today...
Hopefully Samuel is nice to me...
& Christmas is like nearing all too soon...
SAVEUPSOONGURU:)

And finally...
See the photo above?...
People should be wondering...
It's Adrielle Vinesha, my godsister's lil baby...
Finally, got a picture with her...
Her mom was like totally paranoid...
She was like careful Guru, please...
A mom's love & protection is yet the BEST!!!

Finally...

2009-11-12T20:14:00.000-08:00

A pierced tongue...
& am so happy that things are better now...
Recently, things have been diverted in a good way...

I am able to look at things in a more calm and cool way...
I also have met up with quite a number of my peeps...
So much fun...
Nothing else beats this...

Having a list'o movies to watch...
But the anticipation to watch New Moon is growing...
Cant wait for the movie to be out...

Guru is having a list of things to buy...
But he's going Broke, Broke and Broke...
And this irritates him so much..
Argh...
Probably a piggy bank would be a good idea...

& temptation plays it's part...

2009-11-08T19:05:00.000-08:00

Back to the life of lil old boring ME...
Things have come to a standstill...
Life is getting a lil boring...
Haiz...

School is taking the life outta me...
Getting so tired...
Thank god, my angels in school make the day easier to pass through...
Getting up just about take away all the energy i have...

Stayed over in Thani's house with Jivi and Vicky...
Had a lot of fun...
Had a hell of a time laughing away with Jivi...
We were ransacking Thani's fridge...
Had so much fun...

Am also really happy that i am back with Church...
Things feel better...

& lastly, i really have an issue with this specific person...
I dont want to mention e name...
I am just so confused over this person...
That person is practically one o my besties...
But recently, i am really having doubts...
Is the person my friend cause she is my bestie...
We just dont have that bonding any longer...

LASTLY,IWANTACUTELILPUPPYALLFORMYSELF!!!!
A tongue piercing aint gonna hurt anyone right?...

Breezing past...

2009-11-03T17:14:00.001-08:00

& everything happening around me...
Just breezez past...
November is already here...
Shocking...

Friday Left school halfway...
Went to Causeway Point...
Got something for the lil one...
Then proceeded to Sham's house to see her...
The lil one was just so beautiful...
& that was the first time i heard a few weeks old baby giggling...
It was just so nice...
God Bless and protect her:)

On Saturday went to support Sashi at the Nakshatra 09...
First show is RP that i am attenidng...
Was really fun...
Meetup with a lot of people that i have not seen in a while...
A sudden gathering was really fun...
Took quite a number of pictures too...
The show was really great...
& Sashi did a good job...

Sunday came with my sister's 21st cum Deepavali Celebration...
My house was a mess...
Invited quite a number of friends...
& Thani gave me a surprise...
She ganged up with my family to shock me...
My darling looked so gorgeous...
After so long seeing my family...
As a whole..
& not forgetting the dear friends who came...
Thanks so much guys...
:):):)

FEELINGSODRAINED!!!!

She's got a taste for bad boys...

2009-10-29T18:08:00.000-07:00

Terrible disappoinment...

The movie did not turn out like how i wanted it to...

It was too draggy...

& really slow...

Storyline had no twists...

A really normal movie...

Which was tryin'a attract people's attention thru it's trailer...

I have to admit tho...

Megan Fox was really hot and all...

But nah...

Not my kinn'a movie at all...

Cant believe i sat thru 147 mins of that...

At least i learned something from that movie...

A NERD KILLS PEOPLE WITH PENKNIVES....

Anyway people...

Am back with her...

hahahah...
Told ya i expected it...

It's never ending...

& i got a sudden craving for mushroom soup at Sizzlers...

Inches away from the realms of reality...

2009-10-25T17:57:00.000-07:00

I dont feel real...

Everything seems to be like a dream...

My life is just whizzing past right in front'o me...

& i cant do anything but watch...

This time i am really tired and pressured...

Week has been really harrowing...

Had a couple of conflicts with certain people...

Fever, Flu and a terrible throat hit me straight...

Was feeling really week...

& what else should happen...

But a BREAK UP!!!

I didnt want to blog it out as i presumed that in no time we would be back together...

& there wouldnt be a need for this issue to be broached...

But since the princess blogged it out, i guess that i too have the liberty...

This time things were really different...

I didnt have the energy to fight back...

I didnt feel real...

It's a really funny feeling...

& now i really dont know what is hapening...

Are we meant to be or not?...

Waiting to see what the future holds for me...

& i really wanna blog this out...

This issue has been putting a lot of pressure on me...

It's about a certain person...

She's actually a really nice person...

But as i said, i can control her sister to a certain limit...

I cant rule her life for her...

Dont wanna say anything more...

But really sad that things are going this way...

IN THE END, IT WILL ONLY BE ME, MYSELF & I...

Deepavali- a time for Reunion...

2009-10-19T19:41:00.000-07:00

Was really not in the Deepavali spirit...

It wasnt like every year...

Furthermore, i was super tired...
Went to a few houses...

The cousins' closeness semmed to be missing...

My cousin bro's were keeping quiet...

A few werent really speaking...

Had a small surprise for my aunt coz of her Bday...

But enjoyed myself the most in my Aunty's house at Admiralty...

Really had fun...

Enjoyed myself playing around with the small ones...

The food was superb...

But disappointed with the hongbao...

Wasnt up to expectations...

Bought a handphone...

A real bad one...

Went to catch a movie...

Spent on food...

Hehehehe...

& still have a small amount left...

Planning to save it...

Mom's admitted now...

Am so worried for her...
She doesnt sound so good...
Am putting on a brave front...

Will that dream that i had long long ago really happen?...

Deepavali celebration in my house is now a big question mark:(

For fotos:

Ivy and myself...

Siblings...

Family:)

A Perfect Beginning to a Perfect Deepavali...

2009-10-17T23:01:00.000-07:00

My Deepavali Eve was simply superb...
Left skool at 11.30 and headed to Suntec City with Thani...
Met Mummy at a shop where she was gettin a full nail spa...
& i got pulled into Foot Reflexology and Body Massage...
It was super refreshing...

Following that, we headed down to Sizzlers'...
The food there was superb...
I had a spicy chicken and Swiss Chicken...
It was totally expensive...
And we had free access to the Salad bar...
Was simply delicious...

After having our makan, we headed to Carrefour...
Over there, Thani bribed Mummy into buying me Breaking Dawn...
That girl ah...
Following that, mummy got me a jigsaw puzzle and also a box of Royce chocolates...
Was super happy...
Took a cab from there to west coast and then to Church....

I was all alone in church...
Guess that that was what i wanted...
A lil loneliness to set my thoughts straight...
Service was good...
& i went to catch Aadhavan with John, Michal, Jivi, Preeta and Sangee...

Movie was good, but the story line was a lil slow...
Hundred points to the comedy and songs...
A must catch movie in my opinion...

Following that, we lepak till morning and i went home...
Super tired and fell asleep for an hour...
& i shall continue my next post...
Ta-ta...

A lil loneliness wont hurt...

2009-10-14T22:09:00.000-07:00

Am over all that running- after- you...
It's time i give up...
It's up to you if you want to hold it or break it...
I dont want to say that i am the perfect one...
I also have my flaws...

But i feel that it will be better this way...
Guess i am not cut out under the area of friendship...
I do not want to live a fake life...
I dont want to hear to you rattling all the time about him...

I just want peace of mind...
I'd rather just keep quiet this time...
Make your move...
Do what you want...
But i hope you know what you are doing...
Dont give hopes to the wrong ones...

& peeps who are lost...
This aint anything about my relationship...

Driftless...

2009-10-13T19:28:00.000-07:00

Guess i havent been sharing much about my oh-so-drama life...
Hehehe...
Nothing much going on...
The holidays have killed the drama...

Never talked about skool to...
Or my new class...
They are okay...
But there isnt even a biit of the W15G essence there...
Very saddening though...
:(

Deepavali's coming...
& i dun feel the usual excitement that i tend to feel all the time...
Sad eh..
& i want to highlight my hair...
But what the fuck...
Short short hair...
:(:(:(

Anyway, there is a new group forming in Republic right now..
My cousin has started coming here...
And so have vicky and jivi...
Not forgetting Michal...
Hehehe...
There is a new group building up...
So fun...

& lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY Indrani or should i say my dearest topa...
Really treasure you a lot crazy woman...

Getting lenses later!!!!
Yay!!!
Feel totally driftless...

I MISS MY BESTIE:(

2009-10-12T19:24:00.000-07:00

My closest...
The one who understood me...
The angel who took me away from my problems...
She was always there...

Still can remember the first time i saw her...
She was givin me the Who-the-fuck-are-you face...
& thru time we became besties...

However, now i feel that we are slowly drifting apart...
I just want to tell my bestie that i love her so much...
& she means a lot to me...
More than most people in my life for sure...

So happy to see her yesterday...
Was like a dream...
& that lil moron brought me a chocolate muffin...
:):):)

My muffin....

So happy:):):)

Once again the crooked finger strikes...

I MISS THE WACKY STUFF WE DO:(

A Smooth Life:)

2009-10-10T07:02:00.000-07:00

Life has been going smooth for now...

I feel happier now...

A carefree kinn'a thing...

:):):)

Caught the movie titled Darah...

It was super sadistic...

With no explanations on why the family turned out so screwed...

There were a few scenes that really caught me...

Other than that it is another movie with cheap scares...

The effects and the acting was quite good though...

A not- worth watching movie...

Got a new haircut and am feeling so refreshed now...
Hehehe...

This is life...

:):):)

You belong with me:)

2009-10-07T07:19:00.000-07:00

SCREWED IT UP BIG TIME!!!!

Sorry love...
Had so much of plans...
& this is wad happens...
:(

I enjoyed every single one of those slaps...
Dun feel guilty even a single bit ok?...
Cause they made me feel that i am yours...
Hope you liked the presents...
The least i could do for all the love you showered...

You are the cutest being ever found...
The one who gives me piercing looks...
The one who doesnt fake herserlf to me...
The one person who yearns for my love...
& i really want to tell you...

I LOVE YOU BABY!!!!
HAPPY ONE YEAR:)

Feast Of Tabernacles

2009-10-05T10:21:00.000-07:00

I so love this Foto!!!
Its Superb...
& now we go to the Feast of Tabernacles...

Had so much fun at the feast...
Enjoyed myself...
The praise and worship was really good...
Didnt stay for the sermon...

Lots'a drama was goin on...
Anyway have strengthened my bonding with a few people i guess...
Am happy about that...
:)

Skool has started and am so hating it...
:(

Me and maha... After her performance...

Lalala... The Peeps...

Sta-a-ayle...

Wonderwoman with her bodyguards...

Classic example of Weirdness?!?!

2009-10-01T20:50:00.000-07:00

Absolutely not...
Was totally appalled at what people were ranting and bitching about her...
Some say she has lost it, some say that her face has got busted...
Others think she's a looney...

However, i think that Lady Gaga is simply SUPERB!!!
She's totally daring and does not bother about what people think about her...
You say she's seeking attention?...
Well who isnt in this world?...
Every single individual wants some form of attention from someone....

& i really think that her costumes are kinn'a cool...
Self- inspired...
Her performance at VMA raised eyebrows...
It was really a good job done...
& she's something really different...
Not forgetting her songs are catchy...

To haters...
Have the guts to do what she does...
If not **** off...

Enjoyed the performance... You rawk lady...

:):):)

The sensation which is rawking today's pop industry...

4BIA 2...

2009-09-30T08:39:00.000-07:00

Personal movie review...
Sarked big time...
Please dun catch it...
Ten thumbs down...
Was lame, stupid and even comical...

Wasted a helload of two hours in the cinema...
Only the fifth story was nice...
But mind you it wasnt horror...
COMEDY!!!!

Anyway, i really dunno why...
But had a lot of fun today...
Felt so alive after so long...
The nonsensical things that we did today...
:):):)

& i havent forgotten the part on animal abuse...
I am going to bring about a change...
It's my way or the HIGHWAY!!!
Gonna look for sites which can make a change...

I turn to you Father God...

2009-09-29T10:10:00.000-07:00

Father god...
You said that what your children ask would be given to them...
I plead to you lord...
Put an end to these mean stuff that is happening to the poor souls...
The ones that can't speak up for themselves...

Keep the perished souls happily with you father...
& please stop these killings...
Nothing is impossible through you...
You are the one who works wonders...
Show your power father...
Help these poor souls...

Was going through a few websites that my friend Jan sent me...
Really shocking...
I cant believe humans are so cruel and only care for their own ass...
What happened to the man's best friend...
Is everything only words?...
Isnt there an authority which can put a stop to this?...

I so wish i had the rights to put an end to this...
I feel so useless...

& I REALLY MISS YOU MY DEAR ONE!!!
MISS YOUR CUDDLES, THE WARM FUR & THE GENTLE TONGUE THAT USED TO LICK AWAY MY TEARS:(

Blood's boiling at Maximum pressure...

2009-09-28T10:23:00.000-07:00

Laugh at this pic if you want to...

But the clever ones should know what i'm gonna blog about...

I had actually decided to give my blog a rest today...

But after watching a video on my dear Vaanz's fb i felt that i needed my blog...

The only place to vent my anger...

& fuck every bastard in this world...

What did these poor animals do to you fuckers?!?!

If your'll get something with flesh you people want it...

Am super embarassed to be a human...

I cant believe that people are so madly in love with meat...

Such that they have to go for dogs, cats and stuff...

Aren't the basic ones enough for you assholes???...

What if that exact thing had happened to a human?...

Wont they be able to feel this pain...

The pleading squeals of the dog is still ringing in my ears...

Have a heart people...

Stop these kinna things...

Why are everyone being so stone- hearted?...

It's just like what Jackie Chan said...

When the buying stops, the killing stops...

Am totally disappointed:(

For people who want to watch this video:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D2JUtInm5bM

Ninaithale Inikkum...

2009-09-27T09:33:00.000-07:00

A beautiful story of friendship, love & understanding...
This movie really flooded my mind with recollections...
All the hurts, fun times and sad moments went past that lil brain o' mine...
& that usual fear of mine kept tugging at the back of my head...

What if one day she decides that she has had enough with this friendship?...
What if he decides to leave?...
What if i'm stranded?...
These people who brought a lifesupply of special moments...
It would really cause me to crumble if they decide to abandon me...
Okay i am gettin super paranoid...

Anyway, had treasure hunt in Church and woah was it fun...
Had so much of bonding...
& i cant believe we decided to catch a 12.30a.m. show...
Made so much noise in the Church van...
We were practically going crazy...
I really enjoyed myself...
& movie= superb...

The clique at Mustafa...

At tekka market... Waiting for Mee Goreng...

REX... & here we go...

Simply bliss...

Today at Church... The two beauties...

Father's love works in weird ways:)

2009-09-24T09:26:00.001-07:00

Hahaha...
I so love Father God...
He has showered me with love, care and concern...
Not to forget the protection he has placed on me...
Thank you so much Father:)

Went swimming...
Had Loads'a fun there...
Got pulled into a dispute and am glad things are better now...
Went for a televisit to see Mottae annae...
So happy now...
He looks so energetic...
:)

Went to Church...
& i just feel a special bonding to the people here...
:):):)

Heading to the gym in e mornin...
:):):):):):):):)

Will anyone... at least one person understand me??...

2009-09-21T11:11:00.000-07:00

I just feel like walking into a forest...
& just walk and walk till i get lost...
and never to retun back...

Why are things always going wrong?...
Stay strong i say...
But never...
Nothing goes right...
No one understands me...
I SO FUCKIN HATE MYSELF...

It's seriously different perspectives...
I wanna go to church...
MY problem...
Leave me alone and let me do what i want...
Stop making life difficult for me when it is already a complicated web...

I so wanna move out...
So in the end...
Home aint my comfort zone afteralll...
:(

Imma startin to love my home:)

2009-09-20T08:08:00.000-07:00

Pushin thru with updates on the life of a poor soul...
Hehehhe...
Well, had a totally fun time on Saturday...
Another surprise for Bunny and Uva annae...
18 and 21...
We booked a treehouse and gave them a surprise with cakes and all...

Super fun and enjoyed to e max...
Made more frenzz there...
The embarassin part was my dance performance...
& thru it all i was like...
Fuck me in the ASS!!!

Church was good today...
& GURU YOU ARE GOING THROUGH A COURSE OF DISCIPLINE AND I SHOULD BE NOW NOW NOW!!!

A truckload of loved ones...

A HOME HAS THE BEST COMFORT IN THIS BIG BIG WORLD!!!

A Helload of surprises...

2009-09-19T07:24:00.000-07:00

Well, yeah...
That's how it was yesterday...
Bunny's Birthday was a truckload of surprises one after the other...

Welll...
For intro, this is Bunny...
A really cute and playful yet lovable darling!!!

So here's how it was...
Brought her to Marina Square and surprised her with THE UGLY TRUTH and popcorn!!!
The movie was superb and we laughed our asses out...
A must catch movie...

Following that, surprise number two...
SWENSENS!!!
& woah we really pigged out...
Pastas, calamari rings, dippers and a nice cake...
Bunny was super overjoyed!!!

Left for tekka...
Surprise number three...
Got her to buy Vodka and we drank our hearts out...
& the next surprise was JANANIE, JIVI AND VICKY!!!
She also got to see the deepavali light out...
The gal really enjoyed herself...

Well...
So did i....
Really enjoyed the day...
:):):)

I did my Baby's makeup!!!

Welll... I look like crap so yeah...

BDAY GAL... Before THE UGLY TRUTH

Yummy Yummy...

A wish and she blows...

QQQQQQQ for Health....

The Clique:)

LIGHT UP!!!

Me and the gal with the superb laughter:)

A friend's trust...

2009-09-16T09:27:00.000-07:00

Friends...
Something very special...
A bond that unites people...
Someone whom is there for secrets, good and bad times, memories, gossips and all...
One who catches you when you fall...
A special someone that no one can replace...
One who is able to cause a heartache is also a friend...

It's very painful to see how much is friendship valued nowadays...
The time and love someone puts into trying to make it something beautiful...
A never- ending friendship...

Yet i will never understand why it can hurt when one chooses to leave...
The pain caused is something beyond description...
A ride on the bus today...
Caused me to plunge into memories...

All those hurts and pain washed over me...
Went into a really bad mood...
:(

Green Man's popping!!!

2009-09-15T09:26:00.000-07:00

The human mind will always be a mystery...
The way a person thinks...
Actions, consequences, effects...
It is just all so complicated...

& lately my green man's on the rise...
I try my best to shut him up...
But he rips and tears right through the centre of my heart...
Erupting!!!
I just hate this feeling!!!
I am a nice person & i know it...

So why is this happening?
I really dunno...
Maybe closeness might be the key....

Life's REALLY a mystery...
& so will I...

REVOLUTION AT APK...

CHURCH:)

2009-09-13T09:29:00.000-07:00

Went to church today...

Had so much fun during Tamil Praise and Worship...

Bunny came along and we were dancing away...

& for the first time i hung out at Church like super long...

Gonna open a new team: Dance and Drama Crew...

So excited...

& well...

This is the time where i need lotsa discipline and control...

Really wanna change myself for the better...

Looks like the superglue finally decided to hold...

Family's lookin in GOOD shape...

Had fun with Jivi's scarf:):):)

RE- UNITED:)

2009-09-12T08:56:00.000-07:00

Hmm...
Well...
Just checked my 'IN GOD WE TRUST'...
& it proved to be true...
It was written that when the sun rises, it rises for me...

& was i in the spotlight???....
Talk about that...
Was a lil disappointed by the number of people who turned up for Re-united...
The first shock was that Budak Hitam came...
Was super happy to see him...

Then, things went smooth...
& i kept getting compliments for my dressing...
Then, there was dance and all...
& i was pulled to act in a drama...
A last minute thing...
No script and yet once again i made e people laugh...
:):):)

& as i exited by the side after my performance and entered the main doors of the church...
My name got announced...
& i was like 'HUH?'...
& then i realised that i was chosen for Mr. Reunited...
It was so embarassing...
There was catwalk and all...
I didnt win yet i enjoyed...

Then, i was called out by the Pastor to act something out...
I was like Huh for everything...
Yet enjoyed myself...

&&&&& BESTIES ARE FOR LIFE!!!!!!
:)

Why so???

2009-09-10T11:44:00.000-07:00

WHY?WHY?WHY?
Why am i feeling so lost nowadays?
I just dont know what i want from life...
I feel so jealous, angry and scared...
Why is this happening to me?...

I've never ever been like this before...
I feel so strangled...
I feel trapped...
I dont feel happiness that i used to feel...
Just hate everything!!!

The fotos are here as promised:

With e Beautiful women... :)

After e performance with cousin...

Me and Vicku syg...

A woman with a gem for a heart...

FATHER GOD GUIDE ME AND SHOW ME THE WAY!!! I NEED YOU:(

How about that??? Aatam Paatam Kondaatam...

2009-09-09T10:29:00.000-07:00

Was super nervous that this event wont work out...

However, i guess that my judgement was wrong...

We really rawked the crowd and everyone enjoyed themselves...

Am so happy for that...

Revolution once again did a really good job...

We had so much support...

Bunny, Thani, Pras, Sam, Vaanz, Divina and Rajes...

& those unnamed supporters...

Thanks so much...

The support we got drove us on...

& the dance floor gave us a hell load of a time...

The drama was super good...

Vadi, Asok annae and Sangeetha did a great job...

People were laughing their hearts out...

& Michelle's group did a great job at Aaja Nachle...

Overall the event brought a spark on everyone...

Unique yet fun and exciting...

Thanks to father god...

All praises to him...

Without him this day would not have been smooth...

:):):)

Fotos will be up soon...

But meanwhile...

Here is one...

At home... Took a pic of my hair before washing off the spray...

RANDOM:(

2009-09-07T09:20:00.000-07:00

& to peeps who wanted to see the foto...
Here it is...
My costume...
Simply love it...
Wednesday another performance...
Hopefully everything goes well...

Had so much fun webcaming with my sister yesterday...
The craziest pics are all here...
Hehehehe....

We were trying to see who kisses better... Hehehehe...

Similarities???...

The Monkey Way...

Following the Heart... Need advice??

My new shoes!!!!

At malaysia:)

I'M THE BAD GUY:(:(:(

Veer Zaara

2009-09-04T21:47:00.000-07:00

A beautiful love story between a couple...
The movie is simply superb, beautiful and touching...
Just love this movie!!!
One of Sharukh Khan's best i guess...

Went out yesterday...
Headed to Cathay Cineplex first...
Then, went off to Bishan to do Flyer distribution...
Was so funny went we had to look for Vanessa's mom...
Just to find out that she went home...

Anyway am seriously pissed with certain people...
I mean like come to Church to worship...
And not to badmouth or gossip about one to another...
& that bloody bitch is gonna get it soon...
:):):)

A wonderful experience with Revolution

2009-09-03T08:18:00.001-07:00

Well...
People will be wondering what happened to the dance that i was so excited over...
Well...
Here it is...
We didnt win!!!

But guess what...
I am not upset or whatsoever...
Nor am i gonna go around blaming people...
But what i can say is that the judgement was biased...
& how would we know that Modern Dance was not accepted in Malaysia's culture...
Haiz...

However, the thing to know is that i had a hell load of an experience...
Had so much fun...
And really enjoyed myself...
We also got a rewally good review on our dance...
And this just put a smile on my face!!!

Next year REVOLUTION will be back!!!

New shoes, t- shirts and a cap!!!
:)

Surprise!!!

2009-08-31T19:42:00.000-07:00

Well...
Didnt update for like super long...
But am back from Malaysia finally...
& therefore, here is the happenings...
Well i am gonna split the post...

Let's talk about Friday...
I felt so left out...
Jivi, Thani and Vicky were all being so secretive about something...
I felt super jealous and was green all over...
Was super irritated...

Then Thani had to tell me she's going drinking and unwillingly i gave her permission...
After dance practice, I called Thani and she was drunk...
I and Vicky got so tensed...
We called Jivi and met her...

& there it was...
SURPRISE!!!!

They all made a fool out of me...
The surprise was Thani & King Robert!!!
Drank and Drank till i got tipsy...
Had so much fun and all...
Thanks darlings!!!!

Do you wanna play the Death Game?!?...

2009-08-27T10:42:00.001-07:00

& you can never cheat or escape from death!!!

Final Destination 4 is totally superb...

A really must- watch movie...

I had 80 minutes of thrills and chills...

So totally worth it...

Filled with twists too...

I cant believe i managed to get tickets for Jivi and myself...

But well, who cares?...

Really enjoyed the movie...

My personal favourite is the part where the gal gets her head taken off by the tire...

Really gruesome...

Jivi and myself were tugging on each other's sleeve...

After the movie i got so paranoid....

Was so scared that i was going to die...

Wherever i and Jivi went i had something gruesome to picture...

The movie really leaves an impression on you...

Am gonna catch it once again, but this time in 3D...

Yeah!!!

Dance rehearsal went fine today...

Wasnt half as embarassed as what i made it out to be...

Few more days and off to Malaysia...

So excited...

People wish me luck please!!!

Pizza Hut, Orphan and Subway are LOVE!!!

2009-08-25T10:58:00.000-07:00

Well...
Peeps who havent watched this movie...
Slap yourselves as hard as possible...
WONDERFUL,SUPERB,EXCELLENT...
I simply love this movie...
Was so different and unique...
The english film industry has worked it's magic once again...

After e movie...
Went to eat Subway with Jivi...
Really had a fun time...
After so long, me and her...

& Bunny i loved the Pizza Hut treat yesterday...
Thanks so much da...
:):):)

To someone very special...
Dont worry about your mom...
She will be fine...
I so know she's gonna be alright...
& to another special one...
Things look difficult and i guess it is diffcult...
Time heals it all...

Emerald Sparkle and the Cloud nine thingamy...

This thing was so marvellous... yummy...

Emerald sparkle...

Sunday leaving for malaysia...

So scared...

Eight Angels with Abundant Love

2009-08-23T08:28:00.000-07:00

Beautiful Angels...
Out there to just put a BIG,FAT smile on my face!!!
Thani, Bunny, Jivi, Vicky, Samuel, Jananie, Ashwini and not forgetting MAX!!!

Well yesterday out with peeps...
Went over to Jan's place...
& woah the house was like COOL!!!
but MAXU was a bigger distraction...
The cutest distraction ever found...
I love him like uber much!!!

Went walking with Max to get a pack O' cigs...
And BANG!!!
Hit myself against the gate thanks to Max...
That lil one was just tugging...
Super active doggy..

& while walking back to the house...
This lil devil stopped at every single porch to rest...
Super cute!!..
Waited for the gals to dress up...

& off to meet Vicky and Jivi...
Slacked at Macs...
And went off to Seesha...
Rose and Cherry...
Things were going so well...
But the ending was a bit screwed!!!

& Vicky dearest you dont have my link...
But i really love you so so much...
Dont ever think i will leave you out!!!
:)

I love all you peeps...
Thanks for making my day!!!
To the beach next week...

A reflected foto on the MRT!!!

Forever retarded...

My new found love!!! MAXU pattinson... I so love you!!!!

Jan's room!!!

A pic with Ashwini!!!

Boy arent i lucky....

LOVELOVELOVELOVELOVELOVE

Seesha-ing...

Rose and Cherry...

Up is love...

2009-08-20T00:09:00.000-07:00

Yesterday went to catch UP...
Was a really nice movie...
After so long an animated movie...
Very special one...

Disney has worked it's magic once more...
Peeps please catch this movie...

After so long met up with Clementi peeps...
So much fun once again...
Nothing like Clementi Heights...

So tired with practice still...
Something exciting soon????

PISSED!FUCKED!SCREWTHEWORLD!

2009-08-17T21:22:00.000-07:00

I just have to screw things up...
This time i have hit the limit...
Well what the fuck?
Its not like as if i am making all these happen...

Dance practice, preparation for props, exams, Family...
Everything is falling as an avalanche on top of me..
I have had enough with trust issues...
If you dont trust me then why acknowledge me as son...
I know that i used words i am not supposed to...
But like wth???

Give me that damn respect...
And i will give it back to you...
Dont test me...
I have had enough...
It's just getting to my head once again...

& to that someone...
You should know why i behaved that way...
I dont wish to reason out...
But if you know i am in a bad mood dont test me...
I'm sorry...
:(

And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him. - 1 John 4:16

A Bit Of Involvement...

2009-08-16T07:39:00.000-07:00

Well...
Have been enjoying myself quite a bit...
Have not started studying...
So screwed...

Still dying to watch Up and Orphan...
Anyone wants to go with me???:(
Yesterday had so much fun...
I went drinking with Jivi and Vicky...
We found a beautiful spot and settled down...
& i enjoyed the Twilight(As in not the book)...

Today church was great...
Saw an old friend...
But i feel that i want to get more involved with church activities...
Feel that it would be better for me...

For fotos:

Dinner at the Cafe Cartel with Jivi, Samuel and Vicky...

Lime Juice, Strawberry Delight, Aloha and Mango something...

I so love you baby!!! Absolut Baby...

How bout that...

The jumble of things...

Bored in Ashok annae's van...

Aww... The cousin's love...

& may angels always be there...

2009-08-12T22:32:00.000-07:00

I just love photos as much as i hate them...
They get that exact memory...
One that you might love so much...
One that you might want to forget...
However, seeing photos(Happy ones) just gives me a warm feeling...
I feel so loved...

& so my photos are my angels...
I treasure every one of my fotos...
So here are three fotos that i managed to grab recently:

I love my group... Starstruck... Taken during camp...

Ikan Bilis and Keropok... My good friend in class...

I'm gonna miss you lady...

a nEw aDDicTIon???...

2009-08-11T23:36:00.000-07:00

I dunno what is going wrong with me...

Probably i am paranoid or something, but nowadays...

...

I start yearning to see movies with loads of gruesome scenes...

I dunno why...

But i just start getting so desperate to watch such movies...

Actually, there is a thrill in watching these kind of movies...

When you dont expect it...

Then it creeps out on you and scares the fuck out of you...

And then i start thinking about how creative the director is...

From there my mind starts to whirl...
I keep thinking how can i kill people in interesting ways...

I am not some madass serial killer...

But its just quite fun lettin your imagination run a bit...

Gotta catch these movies...

Like really really want to...

Really dying to catch this movie...

Interesting movie too... Wanna watch this too...

Omg!!! I like... i like...

Welll... i Kinna got an addictin to Final Destination even though i have not watched any...

Anywayz...

Final Destination 4 is coming out in theatres...

In 3D...

*winks*

:):):)

rEvoLviNg tOo fAst...

2009-08-10T18:50:00.000-07:00

got myself a new Highlight on Friday:)
Finally after wanting to do my hair for like super long...
My weekends were just so packed...
On saturday i went with Thani, mummy, didi and ambi to stylemart...
Had fun looking at the suits and going for seafood...
Met jivi...

Sunday...
I went for a youth camp after service...
Enjooyed myself so much...
Did so much of nonsense...
At times was really sleepy...
But after the camp i felt so good...
Made lotsa good friends too...

Following that, went for my auditions and my group got into the Finals...
YES!!!!
Cant wait to perform in Malaysia...
So cool to be at the top...
After that, left to Shamala's house...
Had so much fun over there too...
Did painting and the food was marvellous...
Enjoyed so much...

& finally...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTIE DEAREST!!!
My bestie is like finally seventeen...
Hehehehe...
Am so super happy for this lil one who has been with me through thick and thin...
I love my bestie super super much!!!
:):):)

Some fotos to perk your interest....

Before going to stylemart...

My new highlight... And my baby is pissed...

Aww... Throws hundreed points, runs all over the place, rolls on the grass and jump into icky squishy mud... Muacks...

I wanna catch UP with my baby soon...
Muacks...
:):):)

Happy Ten Months Love, This Is For You...

2009-08-06T18:35:00.000-07:00

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know
I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on'
Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong'
Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on'
Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side
I will fight and defend,I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah!

Keep holding on'
Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong'
Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on'
Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah!

Keepholding on'
Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong'
Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on'
Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Keep holding on...Keep holding on
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on'
Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

lOokIn iNnOcEnt???

2009-08-05T23:12:00.000-07:00

There's much more to this innocent face...

Stories that you will never imagine in your wildest dreams...

My life shall always be a drama- mama...

Never judge a person fully without knowing them inside out...

Cause i say once again...

There's much more to this innocent face...

The way i think and look at things...

Can never be the same as anyone...

So don't judge this innocent face...

Well, the angel is sad, angry and full of tears...

And what does the Prince do??

He screams at her and torture her...

Well...

Now, the Prince is just so lost...

I want to go to the beach soon...

aM fEeliN sO lOSt aNd sAd...

2009-08-04T23:52:00.000-07:00

Seriously am feeling that way...
I just dont know what to do nowadays...
At times, i just walk away from Vicky and Jivi...
Haiz...
Sometimes, i keep thinking that i have to learn to be alone...
Cause i am going to be deserted soon...
Stupid thinking, but it still occurs...
=(

And i really want to get a highlight...
And contact lens...
And a cap...
Not to mention new clothes...
A new handphone might not hurt...
So much of things...
:(

I just feel like going to church...
Missing church so fast...
And just remembered youth camp is on Sunday...
:(

Now i gotta rush to Arab street to get my costume done by 5...
:(:(:(

Something to cheer me up???

This:

Seriously cute!!!

Rapid Flow Of Events...

2009-08-03T21:34:00.000-07:00

& i can say that...
Cause too many things are just happening...
And i am feelin so tired...
Saturday went out with Samuel and Vicky...
Got Sam's cap and burned his old one...
Totally hysterical...
We were laughing our hearts out...

Following that...
Sunday in Church...
Blessed by the word of God...
& ended up evangelising in Tekka...
Haiz...
I and Jivi went for dinner following that...

Yesterday didnt go school...
Was at home...
Ended up meetin Jivi and Vicku and Michal...
Was at Guillin a while...
& flew over to Thani's place...
Stupid officers inspecting me for no reason...

So guess my life is still full of drama...
& i am getting concerned for Vicky...
He's getting himself into deep shit without knowing it...
I've not been on good terms with Thani too...
Haiz...
Head spinning...

sUpergLue pLEase... aNYoNE?!?!

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Cause my family is gonna get torn apart...

Havent been blogging the past few days...

My flu was killing me and i'm slowly recovering...

And now there is talk about shifting...

My sister's damn shop got screwed big time... Like BIG TIME!!!

My dad wants my sister out of the house...

My mom starts crying and crying...

My second sister starts shouting about no peace....

I just feel like jumping off a cliff...

Yet why these fakesmiles?...

For who??...

I am like faking my smiles and making myself look happy...

I just feel like screaming out loud and crying...

Where is all that happiness that i was sure no one would ever have???...

I miss my family( the old one)...

Now...

Everyone is breaking apart...

I dont feel safe or happy....

I am sorry for pouring it all on you Jolene...

Thanks for hearing me out lil one...

And to my lil sweetheart too...

You are being so patient towards me...

Muacks...